I sit here wondering what do I talk about today? Well, my weight-loss has taken a temporary step sideways. I can hardly muster the motivation to make it to the gym, I can’t seem to want to cook for just me at the moment, so I don’t cook at all. I’ve been reading a lot and reflecting on my life and the decisions I have made that brought me to this place in time. You see, next week I turn 37. When I was younger I never thought I would live to see 37, but when I imagined my life, I didn’t see this one I am currently living. I thought I would have 3 kids, twin boys and a girl (bc you know we were supposed to be so advanced by now that you could choose!), a husband who loved and adored me, and a thriving business or the CEO of some big New York company. Well, I guess that’s why they call them little girl dreams. I’m divorced, no children, and don’t even have my pooch anymore. I do have a business that I love and that I try every day to make successful.
So at the edge of 37, I am grateful for a few things that I need to list and acknowledge:
Friendships that span decades – when you have known someone their entire adult life, IT really gives you a better appreciation for the people they have become and for the person they have helped you become. These friends I trust explicably and would do just about anything for.
Family that loves me – I might be a tad different from them with my wine drinking ways and slightly different take on life, but they still love me anyways. I feel peace when my Nona is lecturing me, my dad is teasing me about not being able to eat spicy food, or when I say something shocking to my cousin Shannon… and yes, sometimes I say it just to see her reaction!
The mentors in my life have really helped me value myself more and have helped me navigate my journey through life. They pick me up when I fall, give me heartfelt advice, and spread my wings so I can continue my flight. I have had some amazing mentors throughout my life and I am eternally grateful to each of these wonderful women.
I’m also grateful for me. I was born to a different beat – I have never done things the way society has told me I should. I was crazy smart as a kid, played all the boy sports, and grew up very independently and self-reliant. I started my first successful business at 20, and am currently on my third. I don’t know where this internal drive and determination comes from, but I wouldn’t be doing myself justice if I didn’t acknowledge this inner strength that I possess. I don’t listen when people say something can’t be done, I start looking for solutions to the problem. I can honestly say that I am not the type of person that sits back and lets life just happen to me, I go out and create my own way.
My compassion and loving heart are two things that I could never live without. When I love, I love deeply and wholeheartedly – you will never doubt how I feel. But on the flip side, when I hurt it sometimes feels like the world is going to end or that I can’t go on. I am a deeply emotional person, and I have really begun to embrace that and cherish that about myself. I have had quite a few people lately who say that I need to be different and not feel so much. It’s kind of like telling a giraffe to not be so tall. It is who I am. So rather than try to change it, I have to learn how to embrace it and be in control over it instead of allowing my emotions to have control over me.
I was 4 here with my dad Rick and brother Ricky. But I gotta ask – where the heck is my stocking?!?
Weight Loss:
Lost 0 pounds
What I Did Right This Week:
Not much actually
My friend made me chicken noodle soup and I ate that for most meals
I think I remember eating an occasional apple
Worked out 1x
Had some yummy wine
What I Did Wrong This Week:
Didn’t work out the other 6 days
Drank Pepsi 4x
Had some yummy wine! – it’s good and bad right. More good though I imagine!
Goals For This Week:
Get back to Kombucha and drink it daily.
Cook at home and make healthy lunches
Make my protein shake 3x.
Workout 5x and do home yoga 3x
Drink more water
Meditate every morning
Take time for me and work on relaxing!
I’m not surprised I didn’t lose any weight this last week, actually much more surprised that I didn’t gain any. One thing that I have started to do is taking an Apple Cider vinegar supplement to help in my quest for a more alkaline body. Have to remember to get back in the habit of checking my pH level daily. I am still working on relaxing more. My stress levels are still abnormally high and I am trying to let things go. I tend to hold onto things much longer than what is healthy. Never said I was perfect, but at least I am aware of my faults. I’ve also really overextended myself and am trying to get some things off of my plate and not take on anymore responsibilities. Being on the go 6 days a week has finally taken its toll and I am working on cutting back.
My intention for last week was Self-Care. Self-care for me consists of meditation, reading, talking with friends, reflection, and being open to my vulnerabilities. I spent some good quality time eating some great BBQ at the AZ BBQ Fest and laughing all day with @justchrisbyrd. The night before I sang karaoke (I can’t sing at all in case you were wondering) and about peed my pants from all the laughter and crazy talk that was going on. Those two days really lightened my heart and made me grateful for the solid friendships that I am lucky to have. Everyday was filled with friends. It really helped pull me out of my funk. When you realize where you are mentally and emotionally, it is easier to accept kindness and compassion from others when you are having a rough day – because we all have them!
My intention for this week is Reflection. I want to reflect back on my choices and see how they have impacted my path in life. I have done a lot of amazing things, and some pretty stupid ones too, but every choice I have made has made me this complicated loving woman that I am today. I am grateful for each and every one of them. When you reflect on your past you illuminate your future. So at 4:13pm on April 5th, raise your glass for me and send me a little birthday wish.
If there’s a Bday genie, I wish for a Spa Day or an iPad 2 #notpicky or a cabana boy… your choice!
I really don’t want to write this blog today. People comment all the time that they like how raw and open I am and how through my writing they can really see the person behind the words. Right now though, you really don’t want to know my thoughts. Trust me. So for this week, my thoughts are my own. The trust I have in others is on very shaky ground and the faith in myself isn’t stable either.
Last week I shared that through extreme stress I developed Shingles on my neck. I am happy to say that there are no more bumps and the doctors say I am no longer contagious. She said I had a very mild case and whatever I had done to reduce my stress worked. Last week, and even some this week, people canceled plans with me, didn’t want to be near me, and most people were cautious to hug me. I get it. I really do. I kept my distance as well because I surely did not want to be the reason someone developed Chicken Pox. What was hard though were the people that had already had the virus or had been vaccinated and still steered clear of me. I felt very isolated. Very alone.
Reiki (ray-key) means “universal life force energy” and is a gentle, non-invasive healing modality. Reiki assists the body in restoring the natural balance essential to maintaining its energy system and in supporting its ability to repair itself. It is a simple, yet extremely effective hands-on healing technique.
I was very surprised by how much energy I felt during the session, nothing like I have ever experienced before. I have been more in tune with the fact that over the last few months I can really feel people’s energies when they are near me. I sometimes absorb their energy, both positive and negative energy to where it really affects my mood. I emit a lot of energy as well. Most of the time it is very positive, but I know that when I am battling negative thoughts I can be an energy sucker for people that are sensitive like I am. And nobody wants to be around an energy sucker! No bueno.
When I left Mel’s I had the overwhelming urge that I HAD to go to Canyon Lake that day. It was so strong within me that I went home, packed a cooler, grabbed my camera, and drove the 2 hours over to The Dolly Steamboat at Canyon Lake. I barely made it and had to beg to be allowed on the boat because they were overbooked. I found a railing on the side of the boat where I could be completely alone. I then opened up my heart and mind and allowed myself to feel the sun’s rays on my skin, the cool breeze in my hair, and relax as I viewed one of the most beautiful spots in Arizona. I feel at peace when I am out in nature. Being out there that day I felt at home. I saw Big Horn Sheep, hawks, Turkey Vultures, and even some cute little gophers. I named almost every plant that we passed and felt the stress leave my body. I knew in that moment that my life would be ok. For one day I found the peace I searched for. I felt loved, accepted, and trusted that my heart was safe and secure.
I really wish I could go back to that place in time.
I asked some tough questions of a close friend and was honestly surprised by some of the answers. I searched for clarity and I certainly found it, not necessarily what I thought I was going to hear for sure. I realized that even though two people can say the same thing, but the way we interpret it can be completely and totally different. This is a life lesson that I am still learning. I also recognized that some people can touch you far more than you ever anticipated. They show you their vulnerability and expose yours as well. I’m searching deep within to come to terms with some deep-seeded issues that I never recognized that I had before.
Why do I always mention my life in my blog? Because all of this affects my weight loss. My mind affects whether I am going to go to the gym or make time for yoga, whether I am going to cook a delicious meal or just eat a cracker or forget to eat at all. I’ve often wondered if I should just stick to weight loss or if you enjoy reading about my life. Thoughts?
Haven’t been to yoga since the end of the 40 Day Challenge
Have no idea if I ate well because it has all been a blur and I didn’t keep my food diary
Drank Pepsi 4x
Goals For This Week:
Go buy Kombucha and drink it daily.
Cook at home 3x and make some fish and chicken
Make my protein shake 3x.
Workout 5x and do home yoga 3x
Drink more water
To meditate every morning and every night
I didn’t work out at all this past week. I had early morning meetings and honestly, had a hard time mustering up the drive to go. I hope to make my appointment with my trainer in the morning and get back to it. I really haven’t been drinking either. I have had an occasional glass of wine, but I am not craving it like I was. I mean, is it so wrong to crave a great bottle of Cab? I didn’t think so. How I lost a pound I have no idea. I’m just as surprised as you are.
My intention for last week was Truth. I know it is better to really understand situations from other’s perspectives and that it helps our own communication abilities. But sometimes, not knowing the truth might be easier. Honestly no that isn’t true. I would always rather know the truth than live in Fanstasyland.
My intention for this week is Self-Care. I know that I have to venture back out into nature – see the plants, talk to the animals, feel the earth’s energy envelope me so I may find peace. I treasure my close friendships and need to connect to them and share my love and friendship with them. I only have a handful of what I call close friends and if you make that coveted list know that I hold you deep within my heart. Self-care for me consists of meditation, reading, talking with friends, reflection, and being open to my vulnerabilities.
You never really know yourself until you learn your own vulnerabilities and can feel the pain that they bring. Then you can let them go. Letting them go is the hard part.
I apologize that my post is a day late – yesterday was a little bit more jam packed than I had anticipated. I need to start out this blog and be honest – I am completely stressed out. I thought I was in control of my life, of my path, of my emotions, and in one week I realized I am not in control of anything. Not.One.Damn.Thing. And I’m sorry, that just doesn’t work well for me. I don’t need to be a control freak, but I can not be this person that has been allowing things to happen to me. So I am searching deep within to understand why I am having such a difficult time these last 10 days. Emotional highs and some severe emotional lows. This isn’t normal for me and to be honest, it is driving me batty. Where is that positive energy that I had found? Where is that light that was starting to shine so bright? Where am I? I’m lost in fear. FEAR. Fear of the unknown, fear of being a failure, sometimes more so the fear of success, the fear of losing everything financially again. That is a huge fear. More personally, the fear of allowing myself to let my walls down and not be taken advantage of or placing my trust in the wrong person. I really fear losing myself again.
This fear has produced almost daily anxiety attacks. I used to have only one attack a year, maybe. Now I feel them coming on in meetings, when I am waiting for a phone call, when I am just trying to enjoy the warm breeze on my skin. My mind just will not stop. Sometimes all I want is someone to hold me, to whisper that everything will be ok, and just allow me to be. What I know to be true though is that I can’t rely on anyone but myself. Don’t get me wrong, I have great friends and family, people who love me. But I know with absolute certainty that I am in charge of my future and of my present and no one can impact my life more than I can.
I was told two of my greatest features was that I speak my truth and that I am emotionally available. I have a heart that wants to trust, to love, to not be afraid of someone lying to me or abusing my trust. I give it freely initially, but once you have violated that trust, it is oh so hard to allow you close again to hurt my feelings. I have really tried to speak my truth lately. But if I am being honest, I haven’t been really speaking my heart the last 10 days. A woman who I really respect says this is why I developed Shingles on my neck, which is the throat chakra – my voice has been stifled. I might be honest to a certain degree with people but I have cowered lately in really saying what is on my mind for fear of the other person’s response. I can see clearly that the moment I backed down was the same night of my first big panic attack.
Sitting here, writing this blog, I search for clarity. Clarity in my heart and in my mind. What is the honest answer, but more importantly what is the honest question? Am I strong enough to ask it? Am I strong enough to haveuse my voice and be me without fear that someone will judge me for it? I don’t know. I want to say that I am. But obviously, this last week I haven’t been. I am often told I am the strongest woman most people know. At times like these, I wonder where that strength is hiding.
My bff Lisa - love her!
Weight Loss:
Lost 0.5 pounds
What I Did Right This Week:
Worked out 3x
Went to Yoga 0x – Really hoping to get back to this.
Is it bad that I can’t even remember what I ate this week?.
Drank Pepsi 4x
No ambition to do anything really.
Goals For This Week:
Drink Kombucha daily.
Cook at home 3x
Make my protein shake 3x.
Workout 5x and do home yoga 3x
Drink more water
Work on more gluten-free recipes
Having Shingles the last couple days has been interesting to say the least. It is caused by extreme stress and only if you have had the chicken pox virus. I just wonder, out of all the crazy stressful times in my life why have I never gotten it before? It is on my neck, going up my spine into my hairline. So unless you are trying to kiss my neck, you can’t see it. Needless to say though, I can’t touch pregnant women or small children. I have actually stopped shaking everyone’s hands because you don’t know if someone has had chicken pox or not and I can give it them if they haven’t had the chicken pox virus previously. What has ended up happening is that no one wants to touch me – even those that have had chicken pox before. As a person who’s 5 Languages of How I Feel Love is through Touch – well, let’s just say this completely blows. Being held? Yeah right! That isn’t happening anytime soon. The doctor prescribed some meds for me but told me I had to absolutely reduce my stress immediately. Her suggestions to do right away were yoga and sex. Well, I can do one of those easily enough. Sigh. Times like these it sucks to be a single girl in the city.
My intention for last week was Patience. This is still one quality that is so elusive to me that it could be the Loch Ness Monster for all I know. I really tried my hardest to have patience with people, in situations, and with people’s emotions. I don’t know world – did I accomplish it? I think I was so wrapped up in my crazy life that I didn’t even notice. I hope I showed patience to someone. Anyone.
My intention for this week is Truth. Don’t ask me a question unless you want the God’s honest truth. Seriously. I am not holding back my thoughts and feelings. If me finding peace within myself is speaking my truth again, well that’s what I am going to do. I realize sometimes I could coach it better and say it differently, and yes, I am working on those things too. This week though, please understand that I am working on the words and not the tone and deliverance.
My mind is heavy, my heart is empty, but my soul will find its way. I am nothing but resilient. ((virtual hugs to everyone)) as the expected recovery time could be lengthy. I think though if I can clear my mind and open my heart, this stress and shingle business will be on its merry way.
I had another really great weekend. I really did. Started out at the big Yelp party where I hung out with my brother from another mother @ChrisB357, @skinnyjeans, and @1tap. Ran into @goodgreasyeats where he introduced me to the sarcastically funny @glutenfreeaz. It was so much fun laughing with friends and drinking champagne – oh yeah – Narcisse had a Champagne Lounge there! Check out my tweet that night:
A good friend of mine told me that I always seem happy whenever he sees me. And two separate people told me that when I walk into a room I light it up and that I have been exuding warm positive energy lately. Those two comments really stuck with me over the last few days. Neither of them saw me when I was so depressed I couldn’t get out of bed or so uncertain as to who I was as a woman that I doubted every decision I made. I have come a long way this last year.
That is a happy girl!
One year ago this week, I created the social media component to my business Orange Dragonfly. That alone has changed the course of my life. But the really big emotionally driven thing I did was file for divorce. It was not a decision I took lightly, nor made easily. I loved my husband but we were not the right fit for one another. We brought out the absolute worst traits in each other. I knew in my heart that we both deserved to be with someone who would value us and love us through all of our faults and support us through our successes. So I moved out of my gorgeous home into an apartment – I hadn’t lived in an apartment since I was 25. I kissed my pooch Kirby goodbye and promised the little guy that I would always love him and would visit him as often as I could. I left my home with a heavy heart and mind, but at the same time I felt lighter. I cried everyday for over a month. I’m crying now writing this. Those feelings of failure, being desolate, knowing I had really hurt another human being, plus wondering if I would ever feel the love from a man again, engulfed me. Would I ever have a man hold me again or kiss me passionately every chance he could? I am still hopeful, and very optimistic that the wonderfulness of life and love is still part of the path of my future.
I wouldn’t have made it through this last year if it were not for my friends and family. I need to say a special thank you to those of you that were there to support me, remind me of the woman I used to be and the woman I could be again. Thank you for showing me that even though some people might not like me, there are many more who do. I never say what I should, I say what I think and sometimes people like that about me and others times they don’t. And that is ok. I’m not living my life to please you, but rather to please me. It took me all year to learn that lesson. I would always bend to everyone’s else’s whims and desires and forget about my own. Not anymore. I am important and valuable too. So thank you for helping me find my voice again.
One last thing though… Some people criticize me for being so open and honest on Twitter and Facebook. I will continue to be transparent with my life as long as I keep receiving emails and messages from people that say through the courage and strength of my words they have been able to make positive life changes for themselves. I might cuss, I might put my foot in my mouth, or I might share the honesty of falling in love or having my heart trampled on – but one thing you can be certain of, I will always be honest. I’m not perfect, I’ve made a lot of mistakes, but I am human and emotionally driven and absolutely love that about myself.
Love this dress! What a night!
Weight Loss:
Gained 1 pound – That’s ok. Doesn’t bother me at all.
What I Did Right This Week:
Worked out 4x – Took a couple days off to recoup, more on that below.
Went to Yoga 0x – I definitely missed this. Sure hope I can budget for it again in March.
Had Kombucha 7x – I go to Whole Foods once a week and stock up.
Still drinking a glass of wine everyday – this is the secret to my weight loss!
What I Did Wrong This Week:
Not eating right for dinner lately. Been kind of lazy actually. Want to cook for more than just one.
Tried to make a gluten-free chicken soup that came out less than desired.
Drank Pepsi 1x
Had a craving for Taco Bell. Don’t judge.
Goals For This Week:
Drink Kombucha daily.
Make my protein shake 3x.
Workout 5x and do home yoga 3x
Drink more water
Work on more gluten-free recipes
Remember how I told you I went to The WillingWay’s Oscar launch party? Well, I am still having problems with my toes on my right foot. The current thought is that I actually incurred some nerve damage from those damn high heels. I have had some of the most painful, tear inducing knots worked out from my foot and calves, but my toes still feel like someone is pricking me with a needle. No fun. This has slowed me down at the gym because I have been losing my balance a wee bit.
I was tortured with the medicine ball this week from my trainer… I was not a happy camper. It actually hurts to type right now because my arms are so dang sore. Don’t tell him, but I kind of liked the workout. I need to find my focus again and try to go 5 times this week. My birthday is in a month and I would love to have dropped another 10 pounds. Not gonna lie, hope I am relaxing somewhere not in Phoenix enjoying a frothy beverage with a cute little umbrella in it. My feet can be in the sand too… I doubt they would complain!
My intention last week was Clarity. The one attribute I struggle with the most. I am one of those that always needs to know what is going on, where I stand, and the details of the situation. This kind of drives the people in my life crazy. But it makes me oh so happy. Clarity makes me feel settled, secure, whole. I did find some clarity this week in regards to my divorce, but the two areas where I sought clarity I did not find the answers nor peace of mind that I was searching for. Damn you Clarity for besting me once again! Still my arch-nemesis.
My intention for the this week is Patience. This is one quality that is so elusive it could be the Loch Ness Monster for all I know. I have to give props to those friends of mine that have a lot of patience, because I clearly do not. One of my good friends told me last week that the reason certain situations were in my life was to teach me patience. Really? But I don’t wanna! Yes, I’m whining like a child This week though, I will try my hardest to learn to have patience with people, in situations, and with people’s emotions.
So this week if you see me out and about try not to judge what you do not know is going on. This is a good lesson always actually. I try to hide my pain through smiles and laughter and if you don’t really know me, you would think I am always a happy girl. One person recently has been able to see me, can read my face, and somehow knows when I am hurting. That is a very powerful tool to possess because I am the Queen of masking what I am really thinking or feeling. And yes, it scares the bajeebus out of me. I leave you with this tweet:
One man pushes me down as the other raises me up. One man makes me remember all of my faults and the other sees my soul, sees me.
Sometimes it’s funny how one week can change your perspective on something that you have loved your entire adult life – wine! I have visited Sonoma and Napa in California many times, but was not familiar with the Paso Robles Wine Region. When I heard that they were coming to town to do a Grand Tasting of over 30 wineries, I knew I had to attend. I was a very lucky girl when they allowed me to attend all of the events. I met some of the most amazing wine makers, tasted some incredible wines – a couple I hadn’t even heard of before, and shared great experiences with people I now call friends.
The first night I had the pleasure of going to Rancho Pinot where I met Chris Taranto with Paso Robles Wine Country Alliance. Chris was an abundance of knowledge on this beautiful wine region, knew all the wine makers, their best varietals, and was a great resource for all of my questions, too. During dinner I sat next to Kenneth Volk and soaked up so much history and learned that he had been making world-class wines for over 25 years, best known as the founder of Wild Horse Winery. I was amazed by how quiet and driven this man was and his willingness to talk about what he loved so dearly – the grapes, the land, and the wine he loved to create. It truly was an honor to talk to him over the course of the week.
Midnight Cellars 2008 Aurora accompanied the Grilled Scallop appetizer. Boy were those two great together! Midnight Cellars is a very small winery at only 32 acres with soil similar to the Rhone Valley. This wine is only distributed in Arizona – very happy to hear that! I’ll take a bottle please. One of the best dishes of the night was the Ricotta Gnocchi with Rustic Lamb Ragu. It was perfectly paired with the Halter Ranch 2008 Cotes de Paso. I could taste the Grenache and Syrah in this succulent blend coupled with blackberries and currants. Yummeee.
By far one of the best wines I tried this week was J. Lohr 2006 Cuvee. This bold blend consisted of primarily Cabernet Sauvignon and Merlot grapes, accented with Cabernet Franc, Malbec, and Petit Verdot. Can I say utterly delicious? Every time they allowed me to taste this wine over the course of the week, I never turned it down. Most people who know me, know that J. Lohr has been my go to wine if I was ever uncertain as to what to bring to a party or what to order at a restaurant. I had never had the opportunity to taste any of their higher end wines and it was love at first taste for this amazing wine.
Here is a wine segment I did for Smart Family on ABC15 about great wines under $20 – looky who I talked about!
This night at Rancho Pinot was a great start to what turned out to be an amazing week with Paso Robles wine! Can’t wait to write about all of my adventures…
I’m just gonna say it – I partied like a Rockstar this week and lost… drum roll please…. 4 pounds!! I couldn’t even wait to get to that part of my blog. I was like a little kid on Christmas when I stepped on that scale this morning. Can I get a Woot Woot? I stared at the number and thought I was seeing things… what a great way to start the day!
This last week is kind of a blur actually. I had some low points of insecurity, but for the most part, I felt my mind and heart opening up and flying free. Most of the week I felt surreal, like I was in another space, another moment in time. I felt confident, sexy, mindful, and very conscious of my place in this world. Those are some strong emotions to have in one week. Sometimes I felt my heart exploding as I allowed new friends in, honestly met people who my soul thought I had known my whole life. Surreal indeed.
From Thursday through Monday, I had an event every night. Surrounded by old and new friends alike, I allowed myself to enjoy the moment and not worry about what any of it all meant. If you couldn’t tell by my previous blogs, I am a worrier… not my worst trait, but one that does keep my mind reeling at night. I had an amazingly good time at the #Beer4Brains event put on by @FoodiesLikeUs that helped support Trish’s brother who has brain cancer.
One thing I started to do this weekend that I haven’t done in YEARS was dance. Ended up at Narcisse Champagne Lounge on Friday night and who knew that my hips and shoulders wanted to move to the music? I couldn’t stop myself. So there I was – enjoying the company I was with and dancing. It was actually quite liberating. One dark moment though occurred this night – I felt I looked really good – then I went into the restroom and saw my reflection and realized I was twice the size of all the Skinny Giants that were roaming around the lounge. My confidence plummeted, my mood became dark, and I had a serious moment of what the f*ck am I doing here? Thanks to my girlfriends for telling me it doesn’t matter, just enjoy who I am and be confident in all of my attributes. So I did. Took me a bit to come out of that awful place, but smiles and laughter from my friends helped. Flirting sure helped too.
Love to see them laughing!
The highlight of my week was the @TheWillingWay Oscar Party Launch by Morris Callaman, Mariel Hemingway, and Bobby Williams at the Hotel Valley Ho. Their mission is to spread the greatness of living authentically both physically and mentally. I am very excited to see what this new company is up to! Now back to the party…
I had this amazing black halter dress that looked amazing on me, and my friend Stephanie Bond made me the most absolutely beautiful jewelry to go with my dress, custom-made for me. I felt like a Princess! Irene Groh graciously did my makeup – love her!
Let’s talk about dancing – I was a dancing queen, shocked my bff Lisa that I was dancing. Seriously shell shocked. Who knew that I could be that free, that happy, that instead of worrying about, well, anything, I just enjoyed the moment? I truly enjoyed each and every moment. I knew about half the people there (mostly from Twitter) and had some great conversations. I was on a natural high. Felt like I owned the night. I felt liberated. I felt alive. I finally felt free to be just me. I was a happy girl.
What a great night for The WillingWay!
Weight Loss:
Lost 4 pounds – OMG – can you BELIEVE it??
What I Did Right This Week:
Worked out 7x – You read that right!! I have been in a zone. I even tried that crazy Insanity workout!
Went to Yoga 0x – I definitely missed this. Sure hope I can budget for it again in March.
Had Kombucha 6x – I love this stuff! Love being back on Kombucha! I need stock in this company.
Still drinking a glass of wine everyday – this is the secret to my weight loss!
What I Did Wrong This Week:
My eating schedule is whacked. Can’t remember sometimes when I ate, although I know I did.
Drank Pepsi 4x
Goals For This Week:
Drink Kombucha daily.
Make my protein shake 3x.
Workout 5x and go to home yoga 3x
Drink more water
Not to drink too much this weekend! Hahaha, right.
My trainer even noticed I have been in a zone lately – I’m doing everything he recommends and sometimes even want more. I finally took @SherilynMcClain up on her recommendation to come to her weekly boot camp. I walked in and they were doing Insanity, took all my willpower not to walk back out the door. I am STILL sore from that workout on Saturday! OMG it was a killer, but I was so proud of myself for even trying to do it.
This week my intention was Empathy. I honored my mother by practicing this everyday. I have a very caring and loving soul and truly try to sympathize and empathize with those around me, even if they are the ones that hurt me the most. It is good to realize that we are all people with emotions and feelings. You have no idea why people do what they do, so try not to assume their motives, just ask them. Be open to what they have to say.
My intention this week is Clarity. Ahhh clarity – this is the one attribute I struggle with the most. I am one of those that always needs to know what is going on, where I stand, and the details of the situation. This kind of drives the people in my life crazy. But it makes my oh so happy. Clarity makes me feel settled, secure, whole. I try though to remember that just because I ask a question for my own well being, not everyone wants nor has to answer it. It is hard for me to move on from situations without clarity, or to move forward in new relationships. Clarity, my bff and mortal enemy – let’s work on you this week.
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This week though, I will try my hardest to learn to have patience with people, in situations, and with people’s emotions.
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